Oh well.. Morning went schooling..

After school, drop jen at bus stop

Pick up my sis & cousin,

Drop cousin at BT Shopping centre

Went home and rest awhile, wait for daddy to wake up..

Dad fetch us to fix the car music player

Shopping nearby at City Plaza..

Went to Hotel Windsor ate Buffet there

Was very pack and fully reserved

but luckily we went there earlier so still got place for us..

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Girl Girl lump had became smaller..

Great!

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He's coming back to see me and sort thing out..

Perhaps, it's to solve all the problem..

Hopefully, everything go well..

I dislike dragging..

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PS: Shooting Star! I... Sry..

Today actually wanna to do project but end up bring girl girl to consult a vet..

Cos she's full of pain..

She had a lump on her chest..

Poor thing.. This's a 2nd time already..

Hopefully the lump wont blurst.

And the medicine given by the vet can control it.

God bless her pls..

Yeah.. I found a NEW ACC already..

That HIM!

Name: KILLER !!!

++Breed: Husky++

He melted my HEART..

Love him loads.. He is the same height wit me..

Somehow, he's heaviler and much strong than me..

Haha.. ;)

Tuesday, school had event on..
About AIDS..
So we went there to see see..
Cos its link to our PR project..
Luckily Jen still rmb there's a event cos we still at IMM doing project..
So we had to rush back to school and attend the Event.
Watched the AIDS Show at IT.
Got lots of feeling..
I believe that was a real life story.
I really felt sad..
But somehow, the event was interesting yeah..
We also join in to make that event more successful..
Wat we do??? SEE BELOW
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1st
Took pic wit ppl who had AIDs..


(Cos we simply understand that Aids won't spead like that)

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2nd,
We allow them to paint our hand red wit glove on and
stomp our handprint on the word aids on the Pledge board.


(Cos we wanna to give them their support)
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3rd,
I'll would consider doing a LOVEBOX condoms collection..
(Cos every LoveBox purchase, $0.50 will donate to help the Aids patients needy)
> HaHa!

Project in the morning at IMM,

Attend AID event at IT,

Attend all lesson

Lastly Home Sweet Home..

Jen walk off alone cos my friend was there and we wanna a chat.. Sry..

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In his world, there were no me..

He won't forget me but he will leave me..

Perhaps now, tml or in the future..

I'm hurt but who can heal my wound?

I saw him walking further and further..
I hold my feeling and tears..
Hold longer can i keep quiet..
But if i say, how can i start?
This kind of feeling is torture
Love relationship can only last that long?
Regret?

Tire.. Having freaking diarrhea..

Morning do project, afternoon swimming, evening steamboat and now blogging..

Very tire maybe slept only 3 hours+..

Drink for the whole night at the place in the Pic below..

I think i'm not 100% drunk.. Very Super..

Wanna to train my drink skill but scare my heart pain..

Regret wat i had done.. I'm SRY..

Sorry my friends..

Leave early school today..

Heart pain..

Oh well, was drunk yesterday.. But didn't vomit..

Jus faint faint..

Haha.. I wasn't alone drinking but found friend in msn also drink..

We cheers and drink.. Funny?

I wondering why ppl wanna to drink???

To forget unhappiness and sorrow???

Perhaps.. I drink until 3am and thought cant wake up the next morning for project meeting..

But luckly, Jen morning call me..

Raining heavily, drove car to clementi, parked and

gone to KFC eat breakfast and discuss project there..

Lucky got car cos rain damm heavily so fetch jen and sab to school around 12+..

After that went home.. Hopefully tml can drive to school too..

I dunno i consider Fortune or Unlucky girl?

I dun need ppl to piti me..

I Jus wan ppl to appreciate, love and dote me .. That it!

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Outdated pic.. (Cousin Wedding) on 9 Nov..

Setting Off soon.. I love the diamond blink blink band tied on my hair..

Full view of me.. That's me again.. Damm cool!

I'm not beautiful nor sexy.. But i'm jus who i am.. :)

Go School after that project..

Headache.. Problem crushing me to death..

Horrible indeed..

Why? Why me?

I hate argue and quarrel..

How can i ask for freedom and yet saw none..

Time is limited each day..

He want me to understand him..

I wan him to understand me too..

What is love? Are u Happy?

I Wont cry.. I will hold it..

What is Happiness?

I forget already..

No more Night Cat for me..
For my gd, and for the sick of letting hurt again..
i wish to shut down my com..
I wish to disappear a period of time..
Pls tell him, i dun love him..
Pls dun tell him, i miss him..
Must HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!

:'(

Yestersday went to my cousin birthday party,
Saw a little girl that was so familar..
I really cant recalled her but instead she knew who i am..
Small singapore indeed...
We from the same sec school but different year..
Younger than me 2 years..
She ask me if i'm from the guy class she mention..
i was like.. WTH..
She was my ex, So call "God sis"
I ask if my ex classmates was doing well..
Since she got contact them.. and i didnt..
She told me that, most guy from my class are doing NS now.
She also told me about my ex..
Saying that he will be getting marry soon , perhaps 2-3 years cos he love she gf so much..
I was like... GD lor.. But honestly, i nv see him since we bk up..
Haha.. Happy that he is doing well now..
Although i really hate him that much last time but now i forgotten the him, the pain and the hate..
Cos i got much more thing to do and to think..
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It's other day now..

Now around 0000+hrs..

Mixture of feeling here..

Nobody know wat i'm think..

Nobody understand too..

I dun like guess game..

But sry.. I will treat everything as a dream.. Alright..

Happy.. I saw 2 shooting stars..

Wishes will come true? I dunno..

Sad.. Had a tiff..

No matter wat problem we had, i still thinking..

I had to make a decision very soon..

Although, I scare to be a loner..

But i think i can't be so selfish..

I jus wanna to find a person to love, dote and acc me..

How much i wish i dun let u go from the start..

But it's too late now..

Ur so cruel to me, and left me with no secure..

I start to find this secure outside..

Days go by.. Yet u nv try to contact me..

Is jus my own thinking???

Perhaps, u found someone already..

Perhaps, u still angry..

Perhaps, u are tired..

Or u forgotten about me..

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When i saw his back, i almost hug him.. But didn't

I so scare the feeling of leaving..

But I knew, he wont give up someone else for me..

I dun wan to be so cruel to him and me..

I so sorry..

I trying to forget about him especially day time..

Cos miss him much, will only let me more miserable..

I jus an empty shell..

SHOULD I???

CRUEL to him = CRUEL to me..

I dunno if it's worth now..

Perhaps this's a challenge to us.. But how long can we walk?

But Let move on 1st..

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If i let go, will i feel happier? HAHA..

Not giving out yet..

On 30 Oct 08, 6pm
Went to The Lasik Surgery Clinic at Orchard (Paragon) for VISX CUSTOM INTRALASE..
Doctor: Mr Jon Goh..
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I expect this surgery was painless cos
my mum had went for this surgery earlier on and said that it was'nt painful and all..
So i think it wont be painful for me too and bravely went for this surgery..
Throught-out the Surgery, i was awake and knew what going on..
With the latest technology, the surgery jus last about 20 mins..
Quite painful for me and when laser part, i black out awhile and see nothing..
Perhaps i did struggle a bit as the result, my eye had Blood clot..
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BUT I free from Spect and Contact Lens.. YEAH!!!
Although It's quite Expensive and Painful but WORTH..
Now had to take care my eye very well and can't sweat..
Had to wear sun glasses and cant wash hair on my own for 1st week..

Continue to apply refresh eye drop and medication daily to avoid eye infection..

Most important no smoky place and CANNOT CRY..

Still had a few eye review appointment to go..

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I miss u, my darling..