Last Day Here..

Dunno how to put in word of my feelings..

Perhaps life are sometimes like that..

Time would nv stop for anyone..

Only a min of slient..

Our time.. Secs, Mins, Hours, Days will jus continue moving on..

Beautiful Moments will always come to a Full Stop.

:'( ..

My Future are jus in my hand..

I had to decide my happiness..

I jus need a shelther whenever i go..

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Had to upload pic before, these pic turn ROT..

On Eileen Birthday, went to West Coast Park..

Our Birthday Present to her..

Open her Birthday present..

A secret Shot i took..

Pose wit Birthday gals..

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Below are pic of Our Christmas Outing

There's something for everyone.. Yeah!!!

Me wit Jen (LOVELY..)

Our Mini Group.. Mal, Jen and Nana (ME)

Again Us..

"Power of Love" .. Haha.. JK..

My Current Situation..

Ya.. I sick already..

i knew it.. Having flu, slight fever and sore throat..

Again, project waste my whole day time..

Ppt got problem, had to edit and redo a lots..

Missing out my meals but it's ok..

About 12am+..

I broke down and tears jus flow down my cheek..

I cried.. I dunno why?

TIRE? HUNGER? STRESS? PAIN? SICK? or because had a Tiff wit "someone" jus now?

I Wanna to go out for a spin and get some fresh air..

But i think i dun even have the strength to drive..

I wan to hung myself..

Perhaps, i need a BREAK.. I not HAPPY ar?

Since i had on my com, Jus do a small post..
Project stuff is still going on..
Wat i can say is, Damm Tire..
Had been sleeping few hours only for last few day..
I realise that i got a big problem.. (i wan perfect)..
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Yesterday after project, reached home, sit awhile..
Received a call from my friends, i was surprise when he called me, s
aying that he had cycle from his house (Gombak) To my house nearby and drinking alone..
I asked him, wat he's drink and he said: Water..
Than he ask me where i stay? Saying He need someone to talk to..
From the way he talk to me, i knew he got loads to say and really sad..
So had to, went out to meet him and yet he was drink Beer instead of Water..
I got a little wor and afraid.. We sat down.. Sky was full of shining STARS..
He mention something like so romantic, i stunt..
I change the topic and ask him wat happen,
he told me about his fear and worries in..
Ya, I saw his tears flows from his cheek..
Should understand how serious was his problem..
Wat he had encounter was so .............. My heart sank too..
I felt really sad.. (He want me to promised him to keep his secret forever in my heart)
He wanna me to help him.. I still thinking, how to..
His is a gd guy, he dun deserve to be treated in this way..
Hope that god would send someone to look over him..
Let him had the courage to let "it" go & forget that unhappy part of him.. God bless!

Should have lots of pic ti update.. But not in a gd mood to do so.

BECAUSE...

My tooth had made me discomfort for a few day..

So decide to go dentist..

I went to a few dental clinic today, mostly are fully booked cos Chinese New Year is coming.

I search from bukit timah to bukit batok to clementi to ask if there are any slot..

Tire.. but i leave my hp no. wit them, ask them to contact me if slot are available..

luckily, a nurse called up from BT dental and told me there was a slot..

Honestly,I dun have any dentist phobia, cos i did braces before & used to visit dentist monthly..

Dentist checked my tooth & told me that my backtooth had cracked abit and gum swollen..

Food are stucking inside my tooth and will decay sooner or later..

So he suggest to do some drilling, screwing, washing so that he's able to do the tooth filling..

I thought it was easy, and agree immediately..

Very soon, he took out an injection to numb my gum, i was like stunt and wanna to scream..

It was too late, Before my mouth could react saying: "WTH".. i dun wan, he jus simply do it ..

My tears flow down.. Awhile, i felt swollen & numb.. Than he started to do drilling & screwing.. The sound was so loud and scary to my ear, like doing house renovation inside..

After finishing, still numb, swollen painful that i dun feel like eating at all..

Numbing last a few hours..

The bonus part was my dental bill came up to S$250.. FAINT "(@o@)"

Had to suffered the pain, still had to pay expensive bill.. NOT WORTH! :(..

I really dunno that I'm dreaming the Whole day or Today is an unlucky day..

1. Forget to bring jacket.. "Sian"

2. Had to carry a heavy laptop & wait so long for the "F***ing" place which had electrical switch to charge our laptop while doing project..

3. Suddenly stomach damm painful but my friend haven't come yet, to look after my things.. "Suay"

4. When doing project, the wireless internet keep disconnet.. WTH!

5. Awhile i receive a call but poor reception and can't hear caller saying anything.. "Lousy"

6. After that i realise my Hp, no battery and auto off.. "Haiz"

7. Cos sat there for too long, my back felt pain.. "tolerate"

8. I join my friend later to acc for dinner, when i sat down, i accidently hit my hand against the chair and became swollen.. "Pain"

9. Reached home, i charge my hp, saw some sms than i dun wan to see at all.. Make me :'( only..

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PS: I jus wan to be wit someone whom will love, dote and cherish me with his whole heart..

I didn't know that today got project..
Perhaps when they talk, i'm thinking of other things..
Or communication breakdown at that moment?
But i still got other things on, so i can't meet them..
So Sorry.. both my friends..
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Now is morning 7.42am.already..
I haven't slept yet..
The secure i felt jus now had gone again..
Dun ask me why..
Ppl said that i'm secretive..
I totally agreed..
I dunno wat i wan now..
I dunno wat i need now..

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Life is like a MAZE..

Lots of different route..

Lots of barrier and obstacle..

No matter wat, must walk to the Finishing point??
My route is like the Maze below..Which paths should i choose to walk?

Can anyone shine a torch for the path that i should walk rite now?
Can anyone hold my hand tightly and guide me along until the ending point?
I sit right at the corner of somewhere i dunno..
Darkness had took my sight away..
Coldness had took my warm away..

Fear had took my guts away..
Sadness had took my laughter away..
Loneliness had took my soul away..
Weakness will soon take my body far far away..
I'm scare already.. :'(
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I feel :( ..

My mood very bad..

Emotionally unstable..

I'm not sure the smile of my face are fake or real..

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My dearest, I let u go, cos i dun wan to hear all those shit words, u use on me..

I need sometime to cool down and think carefully again..
I dun regret again..

I dun wan to be hurt the 2nd time..

All dun bully me anymore alright? Plsssss..

Hear Sad Song, will only remind me the pain i gone through..

U Happy = I Happy..

Last night, is the night i felt the most secure..
Like someone hug me really tight the whole night..
I dunno how to describe the feeling..
I wish it could last longer..
Am i dreaming or wat?
Am i something wrong?
Am i drunk?
Am i wrong?
I'm confused..
I'm sorry..