YES.. Group porject had come to the end..
Report, Presentation and video had already became HISTORY..
After, went straight home to rest..
Cos stomach was damm painful and discomfort..
Evening when swimming wit my sis..
Guess wat, We saw rainbow..
One can obviously see the 7 colours,
Jus infront and above us while we are in the pool..
So beautiful, so clear..
But it goes away last than 3-4 mins..
WoW.. So lucky..
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Jus received a msg from jen, telling me that,
her hamster had jus gave birth to 2 little ham surprisingly.
Congrat.. Little hamster, came in a gd time..

Today was same, SAD..

I heard that the cat that i used to feed in my condo, had die already..

I dunno how true it is..

Ppl saying that, she met an accident, other said that she fight wit other cat to death.

Haiz.. I miss her loads..

But the fact is, i didn't see her quite long and nv even see her shadow

I felt very weirth too.

But i'm too busy to find her.

Normally, she would be around my house downstair.

She's cute, She could recognise me, and knew how to response me when i call her.

When i went out in hurry, she saw me in the hurry, shewould mew at me

but i'll ask her to wait for me to come back than i could feed her.

She would follow/acc me to the bus stop to wait for my bus.

True enough, when i came back, she saw me, she would followed me to my house and i feed her.

Before i went oversea last few week, i went to supermarket

and bought a pack of cat food for her.

I ordered and leave a reminder to my sis to feed her daily when i'm not around.

Yet the food haven't finished, she's gone..

I did saw some cats concurred the condo already.

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Saturday, sent off my grand uncle the last time..
The moment, when the coffin was about to push in for burning process,

Seeing his children shouting out for him and cried very loud, my heart sank..

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Yesterday, my sis call me up and ask me to watch channel 5.

I turn on my tv and watch.

I 100% regret of watching.

The show was about, How the people, handle human dead body before putting them into the Coffin in Singapore.

I almost vomit out..

Basically there're 2 type of dead.

1 is Natural death, other 1 is unatural death.

No matter wat, both death need to withdraw out blood and insert chemical to preserve the body.

If nature death, body need not need to be operate.

But if unatural death, body must be operate.

They will withdraw the blood first, open up the stomach,

take out the organs. Eg. Brain, heart, kidney, liver, intestine and soak it into the chemical too.

The purpose of that, is to let the doc to write a report of the decreased death by seeing the organs.

After that, they will place a plastic bag on the stomach which they cut eariler on and put back all those things they had taken out and tied it.

Follow by, they sew it back, clean the body and put on the decreased clothes.

Lastly place it in the coffin..

I was really freaking scare by that moment.

Almost faint, especially the part i saw the doc,

place back the intestine (Which was light yellow in colour) and the organs into the plastic bag..

Too scary, too un acceptable for me.

Plus i jus send my grand uncle off to his last jounery and

yet could imagine it happen same to him.. Oh God! Faint..

Sometimes, Words used from the mouth is nth BUT to some, is too HURTFUL to hear it...
Wat more can i say?
Human are selfish..
Human will tends to protect themself first..
Same to me & u too..
K.. Had to blame myself..
Is my problem/fault..
I jus had to complete wat i need to finish..
Why must i still complaint?
Why can't complaint, complain is also a way of release my stress and pain..
Though it happened again & again..
But NVM.. Who cares?
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Today went Paragon wit my mum to check my eye..
Doc said my eye are fully recovered but had to continue using eye drop
to prevent me from rubbing my eye due to dryness..
Avoid sandy places and try put on sun glasses to protect it..
My eye sight was 99.99% perfect.. YEAH..
Mum eye sight was perfect too..
Realised, how technology it's in 2009..
Eye Lasik is a gd investment..

YES.. I AM A WEAKER
I felt that i'm freaking useless..
Project had make me emotional mad..
I really HATE to sit on the same spot for hours.
I really HATE to look at the laptop for hours.
I didn't know why i am so big size, yet so WEAK.
Today, after school went to that STUPID place,

STUPID spot & do the STUPID project again.
Keep focus to my com, to do my project stuff.

Perhaps to some of ur, it's nth or something that

ur jus bear it awhile & get over it..

But to me, is completely different case..

I got lots of problem..

I can't face TV or com too long, i will vomit..

I can't sit on the same place for too long, my backache problem..

I dislike cold cos i will shiver & get sick very soon..

I can't sit in the bus or car for too long cos i got car sick.

Still got lots...... How much i wish i could be like normal..

I'm able to control my mentally but unable to control physically..

For example today, doing project on laptop,

My body felt discomfort.

I had the feeling of vomiting.

I had to try tolerate and keep force myself to do finish my project stuff 1st.

That point of time, my back, my gastric & head start to pain..

I felt very painful & almost want to shout and cry out..

But I didn't cos I dun wan my friend to know..

Honestly, i lazy to explain..

And i nv think of leaving early at all..

I can't explain, WHY ME? What I could do, is to eat pain killer..

That's it.. But it may not work sometimes..

I simply had to continue tolerate it..

After finish my stuff, i rush to the toilet and hide inside a cubical,
stood down, vomit and my tears jus flow down automatically..

I cried not becos i'm sad, but is becos i felt that it's too painful for me to suffer..

Imagine, pain until hand & leg hair keep goosebump and shiver..

Of cos pain would last few days too.. Especially my back pain..

Awhile clean up and walk out of the toilet, act like nth happen..

I didn't wan to talk at all.. Believe or not? Up to u.. I dun care..

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Beside physical pain, had also lots of problem..

Due to busy doing project, my own stuff and physical pain..

My mood very very bad.. As the result, always quarrel wit bf for nth..

When chatting online,

I used him to de-stress by scolding him, make his angry and talk nonsense..

I felt very bad but i really can't control..

I dunno wat can i do to stress out my pain..

After quarrel, my mood even worse..

Haiz.. Had to Suffer a few more day, than everything will be over..

I hope to leave this place.. Enjoy my holiday..

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UNABLE to do project Tml..

Cos mum and i had an eye Lasik check up appointment at paragon..

After that, maybe had to attend grandfather brother funeral..

No one like to attend funeral rite?

I decline of going at first but my mum insist.

Ur may think it's is a far relative so no need to go,

but we get to see him at our grand mum house every

Chinese New Year or Special Occasion.

So i still had to attend his funeral right???

It's not about how far is our related blood, now is about "RESPECT"..

No matter wat, still had to pay a respect to him one last time..

Can't possibililty, wait until my project finished than go to his funeral,

By the time, finished already..

And his funeral place, all the way at tampines.. To me very far..

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Received a Msg from NUH..

They had schedule me to go for my appointment
at 9.40 am at Cardiac Clinic H on this coming Friday..

I had been waiting for this appointment very long..

But we had a Malaysia trip on the same day too..

Still considering going Malaysia or Appointment???

If not happy or uncomfortable, go also no fun de la..
Sometimes, i rather keep quiet than to tell a lie.. TIRED..
Lastly, also had to thanks some of my friends..
Somes friends knew/understand my situation,
Their encourage, support, concern & acc me..
They are mine building support..
Appreciated in my heart.. Thank guys..

Recently, Had changed my HP..
Below pic was, the very first pic of me taken by Mal using my New Hp..
I jus to shy to pose..

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Dog Wrestling.. 1, 2, 3 fight..

My litter pup chopslam and bully my friend pup.. Naught girl..

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Spend hours to groom goobi fur..

My new invention of Dog fur style clip cut:

(MMLH) Mini Mini Lion Head.. Haha..

To bad above pic was too dark.. Cant even see her eye.. Haha..
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It been months seen i last saw him..

Me & wing wing..

Too bad that i didn't bring goobi along wit me..

Handsome looking + beautiful fur..

Together we watch TV..

Last pose wit him.. A gd boy..

He's a prefect campanion but he's quite Expensive.. COST: ^1K+++

Celebrate my 21th Birthday in Class..

Organise by Jen & Mal..

Cutting my Birthday cake

Her stunt FACE..


A gift from them..

Pose wit guys..

Pose wit girls..

Pose wit Teacher and Classmates..

All the beautiful gifts from them.. Appreaciated..

only US - 3..

Wit boon, Eileen, Sab, Me, Yu ting, Mei ting.. Sweet..

Girls pose..
At Westmall

Hungry..

Mirror effect..

Open my present from them..
Cheers for my Birthday..